My days seem to be broken up into little chunks. For a while I’m feeling nearly ok. Then I’ll use the bathroom or just pass out asleep and then feel horrible for a bit. Sometimes sitting at my laptop, I’ll be IMing folks and just drift off in the middle of a conversation. It’s quite frustrating to be completely reliant on folks around me. I’m a pretty independent person and now I need help using the mens room (when I’m not stuck using a bedpan).
What is also frustrating is that I seemed more mobile and functional the days right after I left the hospital. I’m not sure why that is. Hopefully, I didn’t over-do it in those days and cause some secondary damage. I had a home health nurse in, but IMO he was completely incompetent. I don’t much trust his judgment, so I didn’t ask him for any advice. We are working to get a replacement home health service, but my doctor is having trouble finding one that takes our insurance. At this point, I think I’d have been better off staying in the hospital for 2-3 more days.
I gotta say I feel really loved right now. All my friends have been super helpful and even some folks who just randomly follow my blog have been offering support. To those who have offered, THANK YOU. I’m trying to figure out how I can leverage all these offers into getting my house repainted, a chore I’ve been putting off for 3 years but I just don’t see that happening ;)
Anyhow, today seems slightly better than the last couple. Hopefully, it will continue to improve. It looks like no home health for today, so I guess Char and I are going to be changing my bandages tonight.
Rock on, 0gre. You’ll get bettah soon. Just remember to stay in good mental health as well. People weren’t meant to be locked up in their rooms in bed.